2.27 am

hello again. wow things have been a roller coaster ride. i feel like crying and i feel like screaming.

why do people get attached too easily? why do I let myself in too easily? the stuff that was being said was just drunk words spoken from a boy that is yet to mature. and after a week, none was said. like everything was a lie; which probably was. it was just words. no more, no less. and him, being so so far away, does not help.

see, i really need to stop talking to strangers. especially people like him. he is the kind of guy that can melt you so fast like spreading butter on toast. ignore my metaphors. why and how did things get so out of control so easily, so fast? Me being in India, did take my mind from him. and when i did think about him, i let it slip my mind because i cant let my mind become cloudy.

I just talked to him, i said it was drunk words. but he said not drunk enough. What does that even mean? Anyway, i said to him that i shouldn't have said what i've said. His response, I should have known better. I did. And I regret. And he said he needed to go. And hopes to see me soon. Why? Why would you even want to see me if you JUST said "you should have known better". my only response, "sure, maybe"

maybe was more like never. because i will probably never see him. which is good. but sort of bad in a way, because i've imagined myself hugging him and being with him. *sigh

but also, i'm kind of glad this flirting/love drama thing ended. if it didn't, i would probably fall in love with him, may i remind you, him being a stranger.

a weight is lifted upon my shoulder, but i will still remember this. because i remember every bad and good memories i've experienced. who doesn't?