I am so emotional right now. I have not felt like this, I mean, felt something in awhile. Why does it hurt so much? Why can't I heal like a normal human being. Why can't I realize that what happened, happened. I just can't explain how hurt I am. I opened up so much, let my walls down but it all back fired and an army of just pain came ambushing into the defended palace that was left unguard for a little while. Why is it easy for you? Why is it easy for you to let me go, to move on oh so quickly? Was I nothing? Was I not important enough? Nobody knows how I feel. Nobody. The one person I could let everything out on, left. So what do I do now? I can't function well. It may seem like I could, but that's all make believe. After all, isn't everything make believe? Love is make believe. Emotions are make believe. You make it and believe it but when you combine those two words- make believe- it all sums up into faking everything you make and try believing it. Why can't I see this? Why can't I realize? I've prayed so many times to release this tension and bottled up feelings but it won't go away. I just can't function.