To Aliah

Aliah Aliah, what are you doing?

Why do you look at his pictures and weep? Why is it so hard for you to let things go and as the quote goes, let it be.

I just can't handle some things right now. I can't. Those little things like pictures. Speaking of pictures, I don't know why I still have your picture with me. I should seriously get a move on and burn it.

This is so depressing. Losing someone is depressing. If I am in such a horrible state like this, I can't possibly imagine my state of mind if I was to be married. Losing someone is like losing your favourite game, losing your favourite curry mee (pretty serious to me if you ask me) or losing... your best friend. I lost my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, my shield... Whose shoulder am suppose to go to now? I can't open up like I use to. I can't count on my friends anymore. Although I do love them, but, they won't get it.
You seem to be moving on fast. I guess I should've known when you said you actually could. And since its the second time, I suppose for you, it was easier. For me, well, it sucked the joy out of me but I am probably exaggerating. I don't miss you as much as I use to, but I just hate, and it saddens me, that you moved on so fast.

Now where is my gorgeous Amer? Amer please distract me from what is happening. Distract me and give me temporary happiness. I know you're 10 years older but god damn it if I could, I would. Sonavabish you handsome bitch :(

Fuck I'll just leave it at that. Bye