trying to be optimistic.

Well, a few things happened before Ramadan ended. A few to things to test my patience. Bullet tiME!

• well, i didn't lose a lot of weight. not to a point that i'm happy with anyway.
• tried making plans with "close friends" but they never seemed to really bother. 
• shopped for raya. money may have been lost.
• bought rm177 worth of make up from body shop. good brand but not sure if it was worth enough.
• i regret not shaking my friend's mum when i bumped into them in topshop while shopping.
• i want to wear lipstick.
• planned to have Iftar with my best friend but she said she was with her mum and step dad...until i saw her instagram picture with her boyfriend. yeap, she chose her boyfriend over her best friend...... priorities?
• planned another iftar with the same group of friends and one could make it but did not acknowledge it as soon as I hoped which got me annoyed that lead to frustration that lead fury. I'm still happy though, I got to have my last Terawih that was lead by my sheikh and it was so worth it.
• I get annoyed easily.
• Faris wanted to leave our group chat on whatsapp. I got mad because if he leaves, its like leaving our friendship. That made me sad and mad. I scolded him and he fought for awhile but he finally said he won't leave me and the group. he and aiman are that important to me. 
• Sister pissed me off today and I cursed. Regret instantly.
• Bloody Ted movie was so stupid.
• People phishing for compliments. Wanting to be adored by many then denying it like "oh stop it you, i'm not pretty at ALL" yeah yeah whatever, my friend.

Yeah I guess that's all. Oh my, my patience is being tested. Oh Allah SWT, give me the patience and strength to deal with people. For I do not want to be less of a mu'min and please forgive me if I have sinned Ya Allah. Ameen.